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Saturday, January 06, 2007

What is this all about?

What am I doing? What am I doing here?

A couple of months ago I started studying "Applied Knowledge Management" at the University. At the moment I really don't know why I am doing this. I am so frustrated.

I never wanted to study just to get a degree at the end. I want to get something out of it. I want to create knowledge myself.

At the moment the only thing I feel is being in a hurry. The only thing I do is rushing around between the papers and the exams. We have so many different things to do. The problem is not the amount of subjects. It is the amount of different topics within a subject. There are so many papers to write. I can all do them with exact the right effort to pass. But that is not what I want. I want to concentrate on my work and do it as good as possible. But in fact everything seems so superficial. At university everyone talks about quality and measuring the output. But where is our quality?

I don't think I am lazy. No, not at all. Though I work 6 hours a day in a private company, have a wonderful husband and two little children I sit every night from 8 until midnight or even longer. At the weekend I always send them somewhere to find time for my papers. I spend so much time on my studies. For what? For mediocrity!

I am faced inner struggles. I really want to get through my studies and I know I can do it. But I am no longer sure whether I want it. Is this the proper way for me?

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Great Expectations

I have just gone through the platform with all the tasks. I wonder how many I haven't found on the sites. Lecturers change and change theirs, but I can't find out what exactly they have changed. Just a comma? Something important I should know? So I have to read everything again and again without finding the difference to the former status. What a waste of time!

Tomorrow will start our 2nd weekend in Eisenstadt. Great Expectations! I hope it will be worth the effort.

I am a blogger now!

You wonder what this is? You are right - a blog created by mummysilvia.

I want to be honest: About three weeks ago I had no idea that blogs even existed. Then my Australian friend Ombretta travelling through the world with her husband Alex sent me the link to their blog. It is really great to know where and how they are.

What a coincidence! Two weeks later I started college and one of my first tasks was to create a blog. So here we are.

And now you are able to read those lines above and you know: mummysilvia did it! Created her first weblog.

Hope to meet you again on this site!